| 2006, bullet style... |
[Jan. 2nd, 2007|01:30 am] |
>Not a single "single" moment
>A quarter away from college
>A completely new experience
>Friendship with my sister like never before
>Spending time with my beautiful neice and nephews
>Realizing who my true friends are
>A million situations out of comfort zone
>Beginning to feel okay with burning freshman year bridges
>Opening up my mind and heart to changes in friendships
>My world expands to D.C.
>A new desire to run a marathon
>A realization that running a marathon is a huge amount of work
>New friendships
>Old friendships that are now new
>Everyone in my life getting married and/or having a baby
>Not wanting to get married and/or have a baby (anytime soon)
>Realizing that I am the luckiest person in the world for so many reasons
>My life has truly been different throught the eyes of a child (LELLOW BUS!!, basically anything that Jackson felt like notifying me of)
My world has been shaken this year and I couldn't be more thankful for it. Here is to 2007. Party on. |
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| Lots of homes, a little lost. |
[Dec. 14th, 2006|12:11 pm] |
Ever feel that there are about a million places you could be and yet you still feel a little lost? That's me right now. This whole taking a quarter off thing only to have the grand finale be going back to school, kinda sucks.
Well, I guess that is all. Everything is absolutely fabulous in my life right now. I am just nervous that I will not be as good at school as I was at my job. |
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| Lots of homes, a little lost. |
[Dec. 14th, 2006|12:11 pm] |
Ever feel that there are about a million places you could be and yet you still feel a little lost? That's me right now. This whole taking a quarter off thing only to have the grand finale be going back to school, kinda sucks.
Well, I guess that is all. Everything is absolutely fabulous in my life right now. I am just nervous that I will not be as good at school as I was at my job. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 28th, 2006|06:23 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | My room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Missy Higgins | ] |
Man...I really do not do well as a car owner. Today my car burnt down. It looks like it could be the auto shops fault...but, I am not a person that sues. Maybe something good will come out of this day.
Hope everyone is doing well. |
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| Hello All! |
[Feb. 16th, 2006|10:27 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Girl next to me in the office singing | ] |
Hola!
I just thought I would do an update, partly because I have not written in this thing for a few hundred years (slight exaggeration) and partly because I just want to put off doing my math homework for a few more minutes...love the procrastination (new year's resolution not working so well:))
Well either way, here goes. Everything is going really well right now. I have an awesome boyfriend who doesn't go to this school...but, we still make it work with frequent visits. Such as, Valentine's Day when I got a few pleasant surprises...one of which was him! Can't wait to see him again this weekend:)
I have been pretty discouraged about classes lately, mainly because I am taking a pretty intense load this quarter...but, I will definitely survive. Calculus will NOT kick my butt...there I said it.
In a couple weeks I am heading down to sing at an ACDA convention with my choir. Good times.
This weekend I am getting my work on at home and going to Portland on Sunday with the boy to take Jackson to the zoo on Monday:) Going to be dang good times!
I would love to hear from all of you!
Katie |
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| Grandma Dykestra |
[Nov. 13th, 2005|09:18 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nate's alarm clock | ] |
This week has been a journey.
On Wednesday I got a call from my mom to let me know that my Grandma had a serious stroke and seizure. So, I skipped the rest of my classes and drove down to Portland. I stayed the night with my sister and then left at six the next morning to visit grandma. She really, by this time, was doing quite well...oh, but wait.
So, after she started improving a little bit the doctor decided she needed an MRI and in order to give this, she needed to be sedated. So, it was soon quite obvious to the doctor and us that that the sedative, andronin, was not having the desired effect. She was thrashing while having the tests and hallucinating and obviously in mental pain and distress. So, that night we all left very discouraged.
Then, I get a call from mom, by this time it was Thursday morning, and she said that the night was an absolute disaster in the hospital. Grandma kept hallucinating and it all culminated when she grabbed her IV's and ripped them out of her. Then, she literally punched a nurse in the mouth and kicked another. She has bruises up and down her body and cuts because of her thrashing. But, the real upsetting part is that when this happened the orderly on duty, instead of restraining her, put in a new IV and gave her THREE more doses of andronin.
So, at this point, Grandma is literally in a coma and has lost so much ground. She wasn't recognizing anyone...she told my mom she didn't have a daughter...it was a nightmare.
I left last night and by that time they had taken her off of all medications, including the anti-seizure which they were a little apprehensive about. She really was doing a lot better and even cracked a few jokes…just no where near where she could have been without the sedative setback.
I am just so emotionally drained and in shock from this whole week. If you pray, please pray for my family right now. I feel so helpless that I can't just stay down with her right now... |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 9th, 2005|03:04 pm] |
So, yesterday my car got broken into. Every single CD that I own is gone and my car door is damaged. Things could be way worse. It is just hard...twice in three months. Why would a person do this...twice???
Anyway, I hope everything is going well for everyone else.
Katie |
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| What a day:) |
[Sep. 8th, 2005|08:56 am] |
| [ | music |
| | buzz of the office | ] |
Dangit. I was hoping that I would feel older. Man, I feel exactly the same. Not older and wiser...nothing. One step closer to not being a teenager though, I guess:) |
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| The Aftermath! |
[Aug. 24th, 2005|02:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fidele..talking (the boss) | ] |
Well, things are kind of slowing down now. Lets see...I am trying to remember when I posted last...This last weekend was pretty uneventful I guess. I went home and stayed the night in the hospital with Colin. He had a pretty major surgery on his knee (replacing and repairing four tendons) and spent the night at the University of Washington recovery unit. I basically just slept in a chair and helped him go to the bathroom and replace the ice on his leg. Fun stuff:) I was really glad that I was able to give his mom a break though. She looked so exhausted, although after a six hour surgery who could blame her?? So, I sent her to go and get some rest and I just basically stayed up with him.
On Saturday when I got home I spent time with Amiah and Tyler:) Took a nap with Amiah, I think I needed it even more! Very fun family time, BTW! I also worked for a few hours, the best sales day of the month, thank you very much! Yeah, but I went shooting at the range that night and spent time with my God-family. They were pretty concerned about the break-in and have helped me...ahem...secure my apartment. I love living in America where I have freedoms;) Lots of fun though. I shot 25 rounds at night. I hadn’t had too much practice at night and I used a new stance, fun times.
So, Sunday I worked a whole day (2nd highest sales, not that I keep track:), said goodbye to Colin and drove home. I got here around midnight, but I was fully protected so I felt better.
I suppose that this week has gone okay, broken pipe in the apartment though. I am pretty sure this apartment is going to get the best of me...seriously, does this ever end??? I am just trying to have a positive attitude…it has been kind of hard to pick myself out of everything that has been going on. A friendship has ended…the whole apartment thing…just a hard time I guess.
Friends have been wonderful though, to all of my friends that have already left for school, I miss you so much already! |
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| Update Since Sunday! |
[Aug. 11th, 2005|10:05 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | Discouraged | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lauren talking on the phone (at the office) | ] |
So here has been my week:
• My roommates came up on Monday and Tuesday to stay with me
• After jumping through numerous hoops, the bank finally let me open a new account (I didn’t have any picture id)
• Got a new license
• Met with Detective Hodgkins and reviewed a possible suspect
• Met with my landlord and talked about changes to the apartment that need to be made
• Went to the most encouraging Bible study and met three new fun girls
• Got in a fight with my mom (generally never happens) about stupid things like faxing my birth certificate. I really feel bad about it now…but she is acting like nothing happened.
• Got a new bed:)
• Had dinner with my brother and an awesome talk (he was up here working on some Navy boats in Bellingham harbor)
All in all it has been a really stressful week and as much as I am trying to think about the positive side of the situation… I am just still discouraged. The facts are that I can’t sleep and I am having a really hard time pulling myself up out of this. I am sure I will be fine and that the whole thing is just going to just take some time…I just am sad and feel violated and I feel like this person is never going to be caught.
Ugh…prayers would be lovely friends! |
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| My Sunday... |
[Aug. 8th, 2005|11:36 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  scared | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Buzz of the Office | ] |
On Saturday night my apartment was broken into.
I think I have found what the scariest feeling in the world is...the feeling that I am not alone. Basically someone broke into my apartment, came in my room and watched me sleep. I woke up on Sunday morning and rolled over to find my keys laying next to me. This was definitely strange because I always leave my keys in my purse on the counter. At this point I realized that my door was wide open. To be expected, I am getting freaked out... but I still don't think too much of it. So, just as a precaution I go through my apartment...as I walk out I realize that my purse, perfume, gap bag with sweater and two change holders are gone. By this point I am REALLY freaked out. So, I walk to the back of my apartment and the screen was off of my window and the window was wide open.
So, the police came, the crime scene investigators came and I cried. It isn't the things...I don't really care about any of it. It's the fact that I already get scared enough at night without knowing someone is watching me and coming in my apartment.
So weird though, this person took a $25 sweater and not a $1,200 laptop or TV....what the heck??? On top of that, they left my keys for me...didn't take my car or my stereo...I don't get it. I really hope it was someone who actually needed the things they took.
I am so thankful for people in my life who care so much about me. My parents were amazing and came up last night to put dowels in all of my windows and take me out to dinner. I appreciate them so much...I call sobbing and they do whatever it takes (i.e. leaving communion service early) to make a three hour drive just to make sure I am safe.
Christy and Jessica are staying with me tonight....I really hope I get more than the two hours of sleep I am going on today. |
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| A Whole Jar of Pickles |
[Jul. 18th, 2005|11:16 pm] |
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| |  frustrated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sound of Silence | ] |
I have never felt like this before. I feel dirty and cheap and for the first time that I can remember... I feel absolutely lost. I blame myself. Oh yes...I am fully guilty for my own naiveté... I have always been an advocate for the mindset that to be passive is to be actively passive. On my own behalf though I can say that I really do try to be so grown up all of the time...although, deep down I still have this innate expectation that everyone is good. I am sure this is a mindset of a child...but, I don't understand why everyone can't just be good and kind and not go out of your way to let someone fall? But then again, should I rely on someone else to make sure I don't fall? I suppose I am just weak...
Man, I don't even know how I got here? I know how annoying "emo" posts can be and I will spare you all of the fun details... I just wish I wasn't so scared. So scared that I am reverting to some online journal to try and figure out what I am going to do. Let's just say.... none of my options look appealing to me.
And what does he do? Not pick up...awesome. |
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| :( |
[Jun. 15th, 2005|01:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Buzz of the office | ] |
There are few feelings I can imagine that are worse than making someone cry and not being able to say anything to console her. A lady came into the office and had to document funds that could potentially raise her EFC for next school year. I felt so awful...I wanted to just smile and advise her to not record the gift...but, I can't legally advise something like that.
Basically, my hands were tied and I feel like a jerk.
I don't think I will ever be able to not let this office affect me. Yesterday my boss made me cry...I really am enjoying my roommate and I am trying so hard to make the best of this... but sometimes I just want to go home... |
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| Getting my sing on at 10:30 |
[Jun. 6th, 2005|10:59 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | Christy asleep:) | ] |
VOCAL JURY IS OVER....WOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! They chose the french, "Oiseaux si tous les ans" and german, "Sonntag" songs for me to sing. Everything went as planned except in the very last section of "Oiseaux, si tous les ans" I just stopped. It was so random, not for the life of me could I remember what came next. So, I stood there for like 15 seconds and looked at my voice teacher who mouthed to me, "BREATH!"...then, I continued and finished the song...so random. After I sang both of the songs, one of the professors told me that I had an amazing talent and he hopes that I don't keep it to myself and "deprive the world of such a gift". So incredibly nice of him. They aren't supposed to say anything...but, it was just so encouraging. So glad this one is over.
(3 finals to go:))
Good luck to any of you who are going through the same stuff! |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 31st, 2005|03:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Buzz of the financial aid office | ] |
Star gazing every night, mud wrestling and waking each morning to the sunrise...this weekend was definitely the best that I have had in such a long time. I heard a quote once that said to "Be with those who help your being". This weekend I was...I was with family and friends and surrounded by people who love me. I felt so incredibly safe and secure. Something about having someone around you at all times who is ready with hugs and support...I really needed it I think. It is just amazing to me how much my God-sisters have grown up. These three little girls that I have spent so much of my life caring for and playing with...now, are growing into young ladies. This weekend was in celebration of Candice's sixteenth birthday (she is the oldest). She is such an amazing person..there is so much that I can learn from her...We had such wonderful talks under the stars...I went on a date last week and it was just nice to talk to her about it...amazing to me how wise she is at such a young age. I really wish I could say how proud I am of her. The other two are adorable as well:) Still young and enjoying being kids.
I had quite the breakdown on the freeway yesterday (both car and me). I had a panic attack and blacked out for a little bit...so scary. Luckily, God placed just the perfect people around me. Some people got out of their car and helped me get my car to the side of the road. Fun times hot-wiring it:) It was just the alarm that I accidently set off...so, it looks like my car is going to my dad, he is selling his and we are looking for a new car for me. I can't deal with that ever happening again to me...I was so exhasted after the whole thing was over and just crashed when I got back.
Sorry this is so long...hope everything is going well with everyone.. I think of you all so very often! |
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| ahh...b-room thoughts |
[May. 15th, 2005|11:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  dorky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Christy asleep:) | ] |
I want ordinary love under extraordinary terms....does that make sense to anyone? I love thoughts that come while washing my face that make me think the whole time I am brushing my teeth...make for a very pleasurable bathroom experience I would say. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 3rd, 2005|12:06 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Doris Day...no comments please:) | ] |
These past couple of days--weeks have been really weird. I am in an interesting spot. I just want all uncertainty to be gone. Questions concerning housing for next year, this summer, some relationships, God...I just want normal...whatever the heck that is... I don't know, but I want it, dangit. I feel like I upset everyone. Maybe I am not enough of a friend...I wish I could be. I feel like I am stuck in a nasty circle that I have no idea how to get out of.
Anyway, I had an awesome weekend with Jen and Kins. I miss my home friends so much. I also had so much fun with my parents... they are so amazing. I am so glad that I have such an amazing friendship with them. My mom and I went down to the church and just played the piano and sang for so long...it was amazing. I miss her playing. I sang my arias for her...I actually got nervous. I know I was just singing for her...but, still, it still is singing in front of someone:)
Anyway, to any of you around me recently, I am really sorry if I have been odd lately...I hope I get things figured out soon.
I love you all. |
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| Done and Goodnight. |
[Apr. 18th, 2005|07:41 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hum of the fridge | ] |
Do you think he actually enjoys it? Can a person honestly feed off of another's pain. That is pretty dang sick. Oh, this one got written about in the real journal; a true moment worth record. |
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| BOO... |
[Apr. 7th, 2005|09:52 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Library muttering | ] |
I feel like I am in high school again. Woke up...7:43. Left for class AFTER printing my homework...7:45. I am a pimp. That's right...two minutes. And people say I am girly, you should see me today:)
Last night was interesting...good...maybe, but interesting. I feel not all here right now and I don't know how to fix it. I have to be to work in seven minutes...should I leave yet??? I have a headache because I got three hours of sleep...anyway, off to work and then on to save the world (one financial aid question at a time) |
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